New chapter nerves...

After stalking everyone else's blogs for a while, I decided I better stop being a creeper and just post something on my own blog! I feel silly blogging when I know full-well that not a single human being is following.. YET! I just have to keep telling myself YET! So, I'm sitting here on the phone with Kevin, not really saying much of anything, but hearing him breathe on the other side of the phone is comforting. How's that for creepy!?

***BTW, I'm really struggling to find my "voice". You know, my literary flow. These first few blogs may be a bit.... choppy, but I promise I'll adjust to typing my feelings rather than blurting them out bluntly at unsuspecting bystanders ;)

Where was I? Oh yeah, that sweet hunk of a man I call mine! (Brownie points?) He thinks I'm crazy for starting this blog. Well, he thinks I'm crazy in general, but that's why he's marrying me, right? Marriage. Wow. The wedding is in 21 days.... Bizarre-o! I am absolutely thrilled to be marrying the guy of my dreams. I mean, Kevin is not only everything I always thought I wanted, but he's everything I forgot to put on the list, plus everything I need. Ugh, sappy much? It's so funny, because we come from completely different circles, yet we have tons of mutual friends, but nobody has really seen us spending much time together. Well, that could possibly be because we really haven't spent much time together. We ARE in love, I promise. So anyway, I am delighted to be marrying him, really, I am... It's just... the whole moving thing really has me bummed out. I mean, meeting the man of my dreams, and taking the first couple of steps towards happily ever after, and then au revoir!? Just like that. HiByeLoveYouMissYouG2G!? I wish we could stay and spend time together around all of the people I know and love. I have a family here. As corny as it may seem, my customers are my family. They have been through so much with me over the past 2 years, and taking this step and then leaving them behind as we take the rest of the steps just seems... wrong. So, it's not just my customers I'm going to miss... What about my dad and Jess? J.J!? He's going to grow up and I'm not going to get to watch him do it... I'm not going to get to be at his Kindergarten graduation... Or Catherine!? I'm here for Althea's 1st birthday party and then that's it. I do not get to continue tormenting her to say "GiGi" every second of every day. And with Jhontea going on deployment in April, I feel like I'm leaving my best friend, my sister really, all by herself when she needs me the most. Ugh. This stinks :( I know I signed up for this, but it's all becoming so final! And everyone is so happy to see me go. Not like emo depressing, but they are happy that I'm happy and I just wish they would put up a fight or something, geesh, lol!

On the other hand, I am pretty excited about Idaho. I mean, besides the 3 day drive, the snow, the cold, and the fact that I don't know anybody out there, I'm completely in love with the idea of starting fresh as Mrs. Lessly Dosamantes-Irwin! (GiGi to you!) We are going to have so much fun! We have an apartment in Rexburg. It's 1 bedroom, 1 bathroom. 700sq ft. Should be enough for us! It also has a dishwasher and washer/dryer in the apartment and a covered garage. The complex has a pool, lounge, theater room, gym, business center, the works... I'm stoked to decorate a new apartment and share it with my honey bun! Speaking of decorating, we have so much STUFF! I mean, really, thanks a bunch! Our entire bathroom is DONE! Everything from towels and a toothbrush holder to a fancy-shmancy shower head! And that was just the first bridal shower! I have another shower on Saturday and then the wedding! We are so lucky (blessed) to have such  mazingly supportive friends and family! Thank you guys sooooo much! On that note, I'm going to head off to talk to my schnookums and hit the hay so I can be functional at work all day tomorrow :) Nite nite!

Remember: Patience comes from trials. You must be tested in order to develop it. Be thankful for the opportunities you have to develop your patience!